porta il nome di a flower, just over 30 years, is small in stature, even smaller than me, fine hair, blacks, jet-black eyes, blacks, almost dark, dressed in black, always, always say really good, every time the ' I have visited over the past 5 years.
someone at the initial diagnosis has fastened her a borderline personality disorder, the characters often riotous, rebellious, impatient, unruly and provocative.
this is certainly unusual flower, a flower in the desert, a strong personality, sometimes irreverent and certainly a dissident, has a history of great suffering. had an affair with a very mentally disturbed person, its fragility became in risonanza con il delirio dell'altro...il risultato è stato esplosivo, una relazione che ha fatto danni fisici e mentali, tentativi di suicidio, ricoveri ospedalieri in psichiatria, intere giornate passate al pronto soccorso psichiatrico, e separazioni laceranti, urticanti.
ma questo è passato. il fiore si è ripreso, e anche molto bene, ha tirato fuori le sue risorse, la sua gioia di vivere, la sua creatività, ed è tornato florido e profumato.
ma.
il fiore ha un problema molto più serio di una diagnosi psichiatrica affrettata.
il piccolo fiore notturno dark ha il cancro.
tumore alla mammella. da quando ha 25 anni.
una familiarità tumorale impressionante, una corte di parenti prossimi died of malignant disease, a doomed genes, printed in focus, indelibly impressed, sometimes there is no escape, really.
the first event followed all appropriate action, the flower has lost his job and he cared for over a year. But
.
recurrence. in a routine x-ray of his skeleton is a map of light spots and dense.
disseminated bone metastases. and that says a thing. that the beast did not stop and will not stop anymore.
pain, broken back, sleepless nights, chemotherapy that the fold, and the plague, yet most of his illness.
and disgrace of a family utterly unable to contain the anxiety. to support it and support it. imagine a mother already highly anxious, oppressive, obsessive, controlling the time of birth must face at some point in his life and his daughter, with cancer. how do you keep your cool? is not maintained, at all, and everything explodes with emotional expressions of lack of control that make the picture even more unmanageable. But
.
not know what the flower is dark blue that has a clarity, courage and thoughtfulness that make headlines even more than his cancer omnivorous, even more of sue metastasi fluorescenti.
raramente ho incontrato tanta determinazione e metodicità speculativa. senza sbavature, senza vittimismo, senza pietismo. fermezza e risolutezza interiori.
il fiore crepuscolare ha preso una decisione: questa malattia non si ferma, al massimo può sopravvivere, malamente, malata, torturata, assediata dalla farmacologia oncologica, per qualche anno in più. senza terapia saranno solo sei mesi, sarà un anno e mezzo, ma questo tempo sarà un tempo senza trattamenti nè ospedali, un tempo libero,un tempo per sè, un tempo per prepararsi, un tempo senza scampo e per questo di un'intensità inaudita.
i petali serotini hanno deciso: NON SI MORE CARE '.
talks with her I always leave exhausted, it's hard to maintain empathy and complicity with the inevitability of extreme lucidity. at the end of us I often found myself shaking, but as time goes by more and more in tune and I can support it in its decision. a decision that deserves absolute respect, admiration total, a huge consideration. But
. Flora
alone. completely alone. we say that Flora has only me. the rest of the world is against. the mother is passed out with its decision, the father has insulted. his sister ran away. a family that should be taken over in toto by the psychiatric services, supported helped to understand to understand and respect this decision. On the contrary, circumvents the family, blackmails the family, the family makes decisions behind him. the mother comes to your home with patched soaked with holy water, he could exorcise his daughter would do it willingly. Pressing the family because I care about the mentally ill, insane, crazy, irresponsible Flora. Flora, I am told, is depressed, Flora is out of my mind, is ricoverta Flora, Flora is "internal."
but the worst part, because the family can not stand to stay there, so it's understandable, the doctors do. an Italian doctor, European, Western, industrial, commercial, consumerist, omnipresent and omnipotent thinking that medicine is no cure at all costs. Paradoxically, the doctor is the least prepared for death there is. Paradoxically, the possibility of treating a disease physician presumption of delivery to overcome death. medicine and treatment at any cost.
Flora is alone, blackmailed by doctors at the hospital obtuse, doctors insist that doctors are indignant, angry doctors who gathered in conclave with the accused for trial heretical. who do not listen, do not see it, not look at her, the judge, that do not capture the immense joy of living with this girl who asks to live in what remains, getting sick to his death without false expectations who does not want to get battered at his death but serene knowingly and falsely not cured by chemotherapy.
Flora asked to choose for itself in full and complete understanding of his inner world and the world around her.
should only be respected.
is rather isolated.
that medicine is this?
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